Hi to my favorite month! Hehe I cannot believe it, I am going to turn 26 really soon! To be really honest it scares me so much. You are getting older, and what have you done for the past 26 years of your living?
I haven’t done much in my life. You think back, you look around and you compare and you feel like what you have achieved isn’t enough. Something is not completed yet. But then again, have you ever felt grateful for that small things you have gotten? Sometimes, I forget how lucky I am for having sucha amazing mother and a very supportive siblings, how blessed I am for getting the most noble profession in this world, how fortunate I am for still and breathing without any difficulties
You have to appreciate those small things that you think are not enough for you. Be grateful and thankful always. Your heart is still beating. You still can eat and talk to your beloved ones even they are not in front of you, you still can wear nice clothes even they are not branded, you still can sing even sometimes its out of tunes, you still can get anything that you want, its just you have to be more patient. Your time is different from the others and so does them
I know its not easy to comfort your own self. I have been trying too. Every time I feel like I am losing myself, I will go to my friend that I think he somehow can make me feel calm. But the best communicator for you is your Creator, He knows what do you need the most. He is the Knower of everything. Go talk to Him through your prayer. I cry a lot. If my tears could turn into money, I would be a millionaire woman now, or maybe the most richest woman in Malaysia #nojoking. Remember, everything that you are having now its a phase of your life. I talk that to myself a lot
He has given me so much without I am realizing it. He lets me meet with someone who changed me into a better person, He gives me chance to live my life, He gives you a healthy mind so that you can think what’s good and bad for you, that’s you should feel grateful too
I think its time to say good night. I have an event tomorrow and need to wake up a bit earlier (cause have to make up lol)